"I have come to know my life as fiction." So begins the author's searingly personal account of transforming his real life losses and traumas through poetry, cinema, ritual theatre, and in his relationships. Topics include The Clouds of Unknowing; Vertical Integrity; Amor Fati; Cinema of the Future; Anima Attacks!; Reinventing the Romantic; Fine-Tuning Your B.S. Detector; The Self-improvement Scam; The Alchemy of Obsession; Courting the Muses; Frontier Scouts of the Gene Pool; The End of the World as I Want It; and much more. Featuring the photographic art of Sylvi Alli, his artistic collaborator and partner over three decades, along with her Afterword on their extraordinary journey together.